That would fix a lot of issues and challenges.
I’ll get there. It’s called renewing the mind. It can be done, but for me, it’s being a long process. I'm really not sure how to do it, God will have to show me.
Examples of my thinking process....Sunday, I ate only two meals. Neither one of them were the best of choices, but neither one of them were binges. That night, when I got into bed, I was feeling guilty for “all I ate today.” I had to remind myself that I only ate twice.
The same thing happened earlier last week. I had eaten three meals, and those three meals were normal sized, healthier choice meals. But that night, I was berating myself for eating too much. I reminded myself that I had “three squares” that day.
Monday, I found myself dwelling on it in the shower. Later that morning, after eating a whole wheat bagel with 1/3 less fast strawberry cream cheese, I was suffering with guilt pangs. "I should have eaten only half of the bagel. I shouldn't have used so much cream cheese...." Seriously. Mind renewal is a must.
But still. I’m plagued. Many times throughout the day, I find myself dwelling on food: What I ate, when to eat. My choices. This. That. The other.
I know I must retrain my thought process….but how do I get there?
These are some of the things we cover in counseling.
I will get there, because God is for me, not against me.
Was Freedom a butterfly I held in my hand and let go?