Monday, July 8, 2013

Oh, The Sticky Web


I got caught in the web!  I was totally unaware that I was snared until I was completely nestled deep in the cocoon of that familiar place called Binge, the pit I called "Home" for years.   Excuses?   Yeah, I have them, a whole list!
  • I relaxed on not eating carbs.
  • I suffered a stress fracture and an arthritically painful ankle joint, which kept me from walking.
  • I ate sugar, thinking that I was strong enough to walk on the edge of addiction and not fall in.
  • I fell in.  
  • I thought I’d pulled myself out until…
  • Someone hurt my feelings.  It felt a lot better to eat than to not eat…especially since I was already in the pit.
The 90 pounds I had previously is less than 80 now.
I am refusing to weigh for a few days.

One thing I’ve noticed on this downward spiral is that not only did my old eating habits come back full force (a place I NEVER thought I’d be again) but so did my “stinking thinking.”    I didn’t binge every day these past weeks, but I relied on myself to climb out of this pit, and it’s too slippery a slope for me to get out on my own strength.

I’m back at Square One, 
and that’s a much better place to be than the pit.  

I wanted so much to believe that I could have my sugar and eat it, too...but at this point I don't think I can.  I feel better physically, I am in a better mental place when I am sugar free.  One year ago, I would have told you that giving up sugar was NOT freedom...it was the staple of my diet!  I have since changed my mind.  If you are struggling with your weight, I implore you to seek Christ first...He is your answer...and listen when you start getting the answers you seek.   You may not like it (at first).  I rebelled against giving up sugar for years!  It really is worth it.

In April, I wrote the following "Zingers."  I have added one at the bottom and reposted today.   


  • It’s going to take more time than you planned for or wanted it to.
  • If you weigh every day, be prepared for fluctuations and say no to discouragement.  Patience is vitally important.
  • You may possibly temporarily gain weight with exercise.
  • There will be days you don’t do everything “right.”
  • There will be days you don’t do anything “right.”
  • If you rely on your own strength, you will invariably struggle.
  • If you rely on God’s strength, you can pick up on Monday where you left off on Friday…after that weekend food-fest.   And He will help you to overcome those overdone weekends and/or nights.
  • God hears every prayer for freedom, but He requires you to believe that you have what He has already paid for with the blood of His son, our precious Jesus.
  • You will hit plateaus.
  • Some plateaus last a long time.   Again, patience.
  • You may need to give up sugar.  It certainly helped me.
  • You can do this…even if you need to lose 175 pounds.
  • You don’t have to wait until Monday to start.
  • You don’t have to wait until tomorrow to restart.
  • When you fall (and you probably will), reach for Jesus, He is your Rock.



5 comments:

  1. :D God is so good!

    Yesterday afternoon, God gave me the secret to my out of control eating. I was going to post it right then (I have impulsivity issues. snicker), but felt that I needed to wait until you posted something.

    :D

    In a word, my problem is "self-reliance" rather than relying on God. haha. I see God has given you the same song, although perhaps a different verse.

    I'll try to post mine now. (I did write it yesterday, just need to edit.)

    WooHoo!

    Deb

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  2. I keep trying and you keep encouraging.

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  3. so great. I've battled weight all my life, and finally read "Thin Within", which is based on biblical truths when dealing with weight issues. You are so right that overeating/eating badly is a spiritual issue. I had no success until I realized this. I lost about 15 lbs. a few years ago, due to that change of thinking. I've since gained about 10 of it back b/c I've gotten lazy and not paid attention. But I'm starting over. Which is what redemption is all about. :-)

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