It is Monday (I don’t hate Mondays), I did spend too much for Christmas, and I have undecided every decision I made last Thursday. But I’m not depressed. I am musing; however, and I’ve come up with some food for thought.
While I am not negating the strong physical chains of addiction, I have come to realize that our failure to overcome is spiritual, not physical. After all, Christ Jesus paid the price on the cross for our freedom. This most simple road to freedom is only complex because I keep forgetting that the battle is won by Someone else, and I must not, indeed CANNOT, rely on my own strength, only His. I keep saying that, but that is what I repeatedly try to do. My strength? Zero. I’m exhaustingly weak.
The preacher told a story in church yesterday about a dad arriving home to see his three young boys playing in the front yard, each of them with a baby skunk. The father jumped out of his car and yelled “Run, boys, RUN!!” They each picked up their skunk and ran as fast as they could.
I need to learn to run to Jesus, to leave the problems behind, and any problem that follows me, I need to place at the feet of Jesus and leave it there. Pride will disguise itself as truth and convince me that indeed I need to do something in my own power to shed this food addiction, but the truth is the only time I’ve ever felt this was easy was when I was giving Him all the credit and being obedient to the one thing God repeatedly told me: Get rid of the sugar. Instead of relying on my own power to do that, I need remember where my Help really is.
John Stallings penned a perfect song for what I am now trying to absorb, Learning to Lean. Here are a few of the lyrics, and a video, just in case you’re interested.
All He asks is a childlike trust
And a heart that is learning to lean
Learning to lean, learning to lean,
I’m learning to lean on Jesus
Finding more power that I’ve ever dreamed
Since I’m learning to lean on Jesus.
Because I really don't know how to fully rely on Him, I'm going to be writing more about traveling the "Leaning Road" in the next few weeks. I have a lot to learn...hopefully, I'll have a lot to share.
I have posted this several times before...
Today felt like a good day to post again:
When you get to the end of your rope,
Here are the Knots to hang on to:
We are hard-pressed on every side, yet Knot crushed;
We are perplexed, but Knot in despair;
Persecuted, but Knot forsaken;
Struck down, but Knot destroyed
—II Corinthians 4:8-9